Shawna

Well it’s been a year since I have lost logged on. Wow… I remember when I first got started, I was on here every day. I miss that. The past year has been insane, I moved, started a new job, met a wonderful man, got engaged, started planning a wedding and then CRASH…. everything changes. haha and that’s where I’m at now the big crash. Thankfully I’m on my way of digging my self out of this hole but it’s not easy. I’ll get there no matter what it takes though.

My weight loss this past year has been up and down. I’m happy to say that when I updated my loss, it is less than it was a year ago, but not by much. I have been up and I’ve been down and then up again. I’m only 14 lbs less than I was at this time last year, but hey I’ll take what I can get.

 I’m in a much different place than I was last year, MUCH more different to say the least. I’ve been threw alot and if anything I can say I know for sure now that I am a much stronger person than I ever realized I was. I’m ready to give 100% of my self to myself for once. I’ve always done things for everyone else. This time I’m gonna come first. I’m single again so I have no one but my self (and my adorable new chihuahua-jack puppy) to take care of. I’m ready to make the changes and do the things I was doing before that I had given up. I recently moved into an apartment complex that has a gorgeous gym, which I need to take advantage of more. I have no more excuses!

Anyways I could go on and on writing for ever right now it seems but I think I’m gonna stop and browse around and see what I have been missing out on in a year. I would love to re-connect with all the awesome buddys I had before if ya’ll are still around!

OMG…. my life has been a rollar coaster lately!!! I am soooo off track with everything and my days are starting to blend in with eachother since I’ve stopped working! Moving day is in 72 hours and I’m getting anxious! I’m ready to get there and get unpacked and get back on track! I’ve been finding it impossible to stay on track and keep a routine lately and I’m up and down and all over the scales!

Sorry to all my buddies that I haven’t been a very good buddy lately, I promise as soon as I get all settled in I will back and ready to roll!

Whooo hoooo!!!!!! I NEVER EVER win anything!!! I won the defeat the treats challange and the Survivor cardio challange!!! Go me!!!! AND I lost -2lbs, -7 inches, and 3.14% of bodyfat!!!! (<— no offence Michelle and MJ but those numbers are way better than just being a winner!)

I feel great about my wins, but not so great in general… I have ALOT of stress on me right now (who doesn’t though?) And instead of working out like I should be doing right now I’m sitting here blogging and playing a stupid online game that I’m becoming addicted too (lol I’m a nerd like that!) Anyways…. it could be worse I could be sitting here shoving food in my face while I play… OH WAIT A MINUTE!!!! I already did that once today… ohhh yeah….. I was BAD! And I’m not talking like I snuck a cookie kinda bad, I’m talking like 6 or 7 cookies lol! I was at work, and we had a sales rep bring in a tray of cookies (damn him!!!!) and I kinda just binged until my belly hurt. Why?? I have no idea why I did that… I’m sure there is some deep psychological reasoning behind that, but I can’t for the life of me figure it out! I mean I was on such a roll (and ya I know, a couple cookies won’t make me gain back the 40+ lbs I’ve already lost…. but still!) What was I thinking?

Well… it’s done and it’s over with and tomorrow will be another day, another day for me to make smart choices… let’s just hope I make the right ones!

Ohhhh and I decided to update my ticker with my starting weight, not just the weight I was when I started buddy slim… I think I needed that reminder of how far I’ve come!

  So I updated my trackers today, and although I had a gain over the holidays (mostly due to stress) I’m already starting to work off those pounds!  I have 99 more lbs to lose till I get to my goal weight!!! That sounds soo much better than 100 or more! I’m sooo excited, and I know I can do it this year! According to what sparkspeople (Thanks Stacey! Now I’m hooked! And Angel I found you! Anyone else on there? My name is SMK213) says, if I can lose 2lbs a week, I will be at my goal in Decemeber! That means I will need to lose 99 lbs in 09! And I can enter 2010 being at my goal weight I’d be the happiest girl in on the planet! And even if don’t hit it, but I get close, cause I know all about the ups and downs of this, I will still be pretty freakin happy!

   I got a new treadmill!!! YAY!!! And I am completely in love with it! It’s pretty kick butt with all it’s new features, and the pre-programed workouts are trying to kill me! (Eventually I will be kicking thier butts… damn incline! haha) I also went out and bought new work out clothes (simply for the motivation lol I’m not that vain that I need to look cute working out in my own house haha!) And now I’m on a roll! I don’t know why I dread workout at times… It makes me feel sooo much better after I do it, I’m proud of my self for what I accoplish, I love challanging my self (and winning the challange!) it helps with my eating (those treats don’t look too tempting after I’ve sweated my butt off!) and I always sleep better, which in turn makes the next day better because I’m well rested and ready to go! So why do I dislike something that makes me  better? I want to become one of those people that love physical activites, and enjoys working out, and I think I’m on my way! The only problem is that I tend to get bored on the treadmill is where I have it, I can’t put a tv. I can’t read (I tried it and it’s impossible unless I slow down, and what’s the point of that?!) And I have an ipod and it’s great, but I think I need more music (Suggestions anyone??) because I’m listening to the same old songs everytime. So any one have any suggestions on what to do to make the time go faster?

   Thank you to all you guys that sent me messages of encouragement these past couple weeks, they helped out more than you know, I adore this site and all you guys on it, you guys are becoming more than just my fellow buddies, you’re becoming my friends! Everyones support and motivation has helped soo much and has been the driving force of my encouragement! Thanks guys!

So today starts off the 3rd Survivor challange! And I think I’m more excited for this to start than I have the previous ones! Our team is going to be awesome! And now that I’m feeling better than I have been in the past couple of weeks, I’m ready to kick some butt!

I got on the treadmill today for the first time all week, and got in 40 minutes! I took it pretty slow,  I was afraid that if I started breathing too hard that it would make me start coughing and wheezing. I did pretty well, it’s amazing what a week of being a lazy bum will do to you though. It made it seem alot harder than it should have. Tomorrow I’m going to aim for an hour!

 My personal goal this week is to log all my calories for the week, make sure I get in all my water and then some extra, and to work out at least 5 days from today until next Saturday. I really want to lose the one pound I’ve gained this past week, and then another on top of that. I’m also going to try to stay away from all processed foods, and force my self to cook my own dinner every night (I really need to stop relying on smartones and lean cusines!) I know I can do it… it’s just a matter of not being lazy and just doing it. I’ve been drinking alot of tea these past couple weeks being sick, and it’s great. I’m going to try to use that as a subsitite for my coffee and hopefully it will help me cut back to the one cup a day I’d like to be able to have. I hate getting a headache if I don’t have my coffee, and I need to not be so dependante on caffine! (haha the tea I drink is caffine free herbal tea) I think the tea should help (plus I’ve learned that it’s great when I’m feeling kinda hungry, but I’m not really hungry enough to eat… so hopefully it it will help cut back on snacking) I’m totally addicted to the sleepytime tea…. it’s amazing!

Hey Buddies!! Sorry I seem to not be around as much lately (don’t worry… I haven’t went anywhere!!! and as soon as I get better I plan on kicking some butt at full force!) As some of you guys know, I’ve been really sick. The never ending headache is getting under control (at least I hope….) dr says it’s migraines and I’m on a new med for that. Then about 2 weeks ago I started coming down with something, and I thought it was just a cold (I already had my flu shot for the year) but it just kept getting worse and worse (to the point where I couldn’t breathe… ended up at the hospital twice for that!) and I had bronchitis which has turned into pneumonia (:( enter all the sympathy you want here!) It’s making me miserable, but I’m hoping I’m going to be getting better soon. I’m on all sorts of medications, nebulizer treaments, an inhaler, steriods and antibotics and this super awesome cough syrup that knocks me off my butt (but works amazing!)

Because of all this, my working out/eating has sucked!!! I haven’t done any form of exercise (which to be honest, I’m kinda missing it, although still enjoying the break) and my eating hasn’t been horrible, but I don’t really have much of an appitete at all, even though the dr said the steriods should make me really hungry. I have lost about 2lbs so far, but I’m not sure if I should even count that being sick and all, it’s not like it’s real weight loss so I’m still debating on updating my ticker. At least it’s making it easy for me to say no to all the goodies!!! <— trying to look at the postives!

Well there is some good news…. my Dr was very impressed with my weight loss (even the nurse was asking for tips on what I’m doing) which made me feel really great!

I hope all you guys are having an awesome week!!! It’s the last week of the survivor #2, but this Saturday a new one will start (if your intrested check it out!!! http://www.weight-loss-forums.buddyslim.com/fitness-challenge/4385-fitness-survivor-3-a.html It’s a great challange!!! and DEFIENTLY keeps you on your toes and holds you accountable!!! Oh and I’m one of the team leaders so it makes it that much cooler! hahaha LMAO!!!)

  I weighed/measured in this morning for the Survivor challange and it’s exactlly the same as last week. It’s like this week never happened All 7 days of counting calories didn’t make a difference, working out and the bonus workouts I did for the twist this week didn’t change anything. And while I’m happy I didn’t gain, it’s kinda sad that there was no change. I can’t blame it on TOM, or anything else, but I know I didn’t work to my full potentional because of this damn headache (yes, it’s still here) I’m going to make a dr’s appointment this week (if I can get in before thanksgiving) Something is off for me to have a headache this strong for over a week now. I’ve been trying to figure out what is wrong with me, but maybe it’s time for the doctor to try to figure it out cause I can’t.

This headache will not go away!!!!! It’s making me wanna shoot my self! I’ve had a headache since Sunday and I can’t figure out what’s causing it. It seems to be ok in the morning, but right after lunch I’m dying. It hurts so bad (and the other day it got so bad I could hardly turn my head) I’m talking in my temples kinda throbing, it’s really intense. Tylenol and Motirn aren’t touching it and I can’t pin point what is bringing it on. I’m eating a pretty balanced diet, my eyes have recently been checked… I just can’t figure it out!

I’m just feeling so blah right now, I haven’t done any exercise today and that could be the reason for the blahness, but I’m really sore from all the extra work I’ve been doing lately (the Survivor girls are really kicking my ass this week!) and although I worked out the past couple of days with this headache, I just can’t do it tonight…

I did it!!!! Not only did I lose the 3lbs that I had gained, I lost another one of top of that! I’m soooo excited! Yesterday was a really good day for me, not only did I have a great weigh in (and lost 6 inches!) I also got my baby fixed!!! No more treadmill withdrawal for me! I went 3 days with out it and I missed it more than I ever thought I would! So my friend came over to help me fix it and while we were playing with it, I decided that I wanted to learn more about the incline (it has a manual incline) well I read the book (I should have done that a long time ago lol!) and learned how to adjust it. So after it was all fixed I decided to get on and do my work out, and it was much easier than it was before. I checked out the incline and I realised that I have been working out on an incline this whole time hahaha! I was working harder than I thought! Whooo hoo!

Why do people suggest rewards of crappy food when you loss weight? After my friend and I were done working on my treadmill he suggested going out for pizza, I said I couldn’t (thank you Angel for making that deal with me!!! I wouldn’t have any will power to say no with out it!) And he said, “come on you lost 4lbs you can have a piece of pizza, it won’t hurt.” I said to him… that’s like telling an acholic that “Hey, you’ve been sober for 30 days, let’s celebrate by having a drink” haha! That sure shut him up! So I’m really proud of my self, not only did I turn down the temptation, but I made it even better by spending the time I could have been eating junk food with him, on my treadmill! Go me!

So I was reading a friends blog yesterday and I saw that she lost over 10% of her starting body weight (Go Stacey!) And I was curious to see what I had lost, I found this site that tells you how to figure out your percentage and I’ve lost 15.71% HOLY CRAP that made me feel good looking at it! If you want to figure yours out all you have to do is…

Divide number of pounds lost by the starting weight

Multiply the answer to step 1 by 100

Example: 44 /280 x 100 = 15.7143%

p.s. I got my red star back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What the heck is going on??? I weighed in for my Survivor challange this morning and I GAINED 3 lbs since last week!!! I was in tears as I posted it, and felt like a complete failure. I have been on a steady weight loss since July and this has been the first time I gained. And I know I should be happy that it’s the first time, but seriously 3lbs? I could see maybe one, or even two tops. But 3? Ughhhhh…. I also lost my red star

 I know it could be because of a number of things. I went to a wedding last weekend, and I probably drank the whole weekends worth of calories in one night and I had to have some wedding cake, followed by a not so healthy breakfast the next morning on the way home (pancakes but I didn’t eat the meats that came with it) and then this past week I did miss 2 days of working out, and being lazy having pink eye (it was more painful to see than I thought it would be which just turned me into a whinny bum) and staying home and not being very active. So I haven’t really done as well as I could have. It’s also that TOM….

 I want to sit here and beat my self up over it, but I’m not going to. As soon as I finish posting this, I’m gonna go get my butt on my treadmill and then try to tackle Michelle’s Survivor twist. I also made it my goal to log my daily calories all week long (I do so much better with my diet when I do) I use thesmartcalorie.com because it has more of the foods I eat and I think it has a very friendly user interface to work with. It also shows on the monthly calander when you go over your calories in red and green for the days you stay under. I prefer to have my calander be all green haha

 I can’t wait to see how my team did in the survivor challange! Go Survivor Sistas!!!