Shawna

I need to stop procrastinating and get to workin out! I’ve been sitting here for the past 1/2 hour reading blogs (which are all amazing! I’m so glad I came across this site!) But it’s time I got off my fat lazy butt and got on my treadmill, only an hour till the biggest loser!!

 Ughhh… when I started my job almost 4 years ago, I was warned about the dangerous goodies that came into our office (Sales reps loooove to butter us up with all sorts of treats) And until last April (when for the first time in my life I started to care) I don’t think I denied my self one of those treats. I always indulged in everything… Today we had a rep bring us in pumpkin pie…. and it looked GREAT. I’m proud of my self for not having any! Hopefully all these little changes will start to add up.

  Read the book “Skinny Bitch” today…. a little disturbing if you ask me. I would have loved if it had more diet advice and less talk about… well… the other stuff (I won’t go into details) The pooping chapter was great though, I chuckled out loud!

  Only walked a mile today… but I did well in staying under my calories so that’s ok by me. =)

  I really feel the need to start over with a clean slate. I need to hold my self more accountable for what I’m doing, hence this blog. I have a goal to reach, damn it! This move is going to happen alot sooner than I think and these next couple of months are going to fly by faster than I can comprehend.

  This isn’t the first time I have tried starting a blog, I always start out with the best intentions and then after a couple weeks I kinda just forget about it. I don’t want to do that again, I want to reach my goals, and I know I can do it. I’m not going to make my self any unrealistic promises to my self, but I am going to try really hard. I was doing great for awhile and then I kinda let my self slip up.

  I started out at 280lbs… And I kinda started out not knowing which direction I was going. Now I feel like I have a little more knowledge, and all the things I need to suceed, and most importantly, I’m not going to let my self slip up again. I’m going to be starting phase one of south beach again, it’s a great motivator when you see the scale drop so quickly and I think it will help me start out the right way (and eliminate all those cravings) I’m going to give my self less food choices (that’s where I get introuble, I tend to get a little too creative when chosing my meals and snacks) I know the right and the wrong things to eat and I’m not going to play stupid.

  And I’m going to stick with my goals… I might start even logging them on here, that way if I fail I look like a loser.