Shawna

Whooo hoooo!!!!!! I NEVER EVER win anything!!! I won the defeat the treats challange and the Survivor cardio challange!!! Go me!!!! AND I lost -2lbs, -7 inches, and 3.14% of bodyfat!!!! (<— no offence Michelle and MJ but those numbers are way better than just being a winner!)

I feel great about my wins, but not so great in general… I have ALOT of stress on me right now (who doesn’t though?) And instead of working out like I should be doing right now I’m sitting here blogging and playing a stupid online game that I’m becoming addicted too (lol I’m a nerd like that!) Anyways…. it could be worse I could be sitting here shoving food in my face while I play… OH WAIT A MINUTE!!!! I already did that once today… ohhh yeah….. I was BAD! And I’m not talking like I snuck a cookie kinda bad, I’m talking like 6 or 7 cookies lol! I was at work, and we had a sales rep bring in a tray of cookies (damn him!!!!) and I kinda just binged until my belly hurt. Why?? I have no idea why I did that… I’m sure there is some deep psychological reasoning behind that, but I can’t for the life of me figure it out! I mean I was on such a roll (and ya I know, a couple cookies won’t make me gain back the 40+ lbs I’ve already lost…. but still!) What was I thinking?

Well… it’s done and it’s over with and tomorrow will be another day, another day for me to make smart choices… let’s just hope I make the right ones!

Ohhhh and I decided to update my ticker with my starting weight, not just the weight I was when I started buddy slim… I think I needed that reminder of how far I’ve come!

  So I updated my trackers today, and although I had a gain over the holidays (mostly due to stress) I’m already starting to work off those pounds!  I have 99 more lbs to lose till I get to my goal weight!!! That sounds soo much better than 100 or more! I’m sooo excited, and I know I can do it this year! According to what sparkspeople (Thanks Stacey! Now I’m hooked! And Angel I found you! Anyone else on there? My name is SMK213) says, if I can lose 2lbs a week, I will be at my goal in Decemeber! That means I will need to lose 99 lbs in 09! And I can enter 2010 being at my goal weight I’d be the happiest girl in on the planet! And even if don’t hit it, but I get close, cause I know all about the ups and downs of this, I will still be pretty freakin happy!

   I got a new treadmill!!! YAY!!! And I am completely in love with it! It’s pretty kick butt with all it’s new features, and the pre-programed workouts are trying to kill me! (Eventually I will be kicking thier butts… damn incline! haha) I also went out and bought new work out clothes (simply for the motivation lol I’m not that vain that I need to look cute working out in my own house haha!) And now I’m on a roll! I don’t know why I dread workout at times… It makes me feel sooo much better after I do it, I’m proud of my self for what I accoplish, I love challanging my self (and winning the challange!) it helps with my eating (those treats don’t look too tempting after I’ve sweated my butt off!) and I always sleep better, which in turn makes the next day better because I’m well rested and ready to go! So why do I dislike something that makes me  better? I want to become one of those people that love physical activites, and enjoys working out, and I think I’m on my way! The only problem is that I tend to get bored on the treadmill is where I have it, I can’t put a tv. I can’t read (I tried it and it’s impossible unless I slow down, and what’s the point of that?!) And I have an ipod and it’s great, but I think I need more music (Suggestions anyone??) because I’m listening to the same old songs everytime. So any one have any suggestions on what to do to make the time go faster?

   Thank you to all you guys that sent me messages of encouragement these past couple weeks, they helped out more than you know, I adore this site and all you guys on it, you guys are becoming more than just my fellow buddies, you’re becoming my friends! Everyones support and motivation has helped soo much and has been the driving force of my encouragement! Thanks guys!